JAMIE'S STORY

This website is in honour of my son Jamie.

He was 9 years old when he drowned on August 24, 2001.

While I went working, he and his older brother Joey went swimming with a group of 24 children and 5 or 6 supervisors. That day was a normal day until later that afternoon Jamie drowned in a pond. No one of the supervisors missed him, not even when they pulled a child out of the water. He had been under for at least an hour and a half.  And there was only one lifeguard, too little for such a big pond. Nothing has changed since then, only when it's very hot, there sometimes is a second lifeguard. But they were not to blame, no sir. No one is taking the responsibility of what happened that day. So I blame myself for letting him go. I should have stayed home.

If only I had known, I would never had let him go.

His beautiful life started on July 1 st 1992. He was a fantastic kid. He smiled a lot, he had fun and joy in his life. He went to kindergarten. Then first class, second class and third, he never could start fourth anymore. They all loved Jamie. He could be stubborn but in the mean time he was very social. And I knew how to handle him. He loved me too, he sometimes smiled at me in a way that only he could. And then he blinked his eyes in a very special way.

He loved playing soccer. He was an attacker and made a lot of goals. On sundays he liked going to the chiro. He went on camp with them. He enjoyed that very much. A lot of friends miss him now. 

We miss him the most. Our lives are not the same anymore. A piece of our heart is forever gone. 

Some people don't understand that our pain is forever. It will never go away. We can only hope to see him again when our time has come. But in the meantime I have to go on for my husband and especially my other son Joey. 

For those who haven't lost a child, thank you God, I hope you never will.
But for those who did, you have our support. You are in our thoughts, together with your angels.
We need to go one but sometimes it's hard, especially when you see other children of his age grow up. And do things you know Jamie would have done.

We, parents who have lost a child, know what it means, all the pain and sorrow. We have become members of a club of which no one wants to be a member of, never.

We love him so.

I would be very happy if you would leave a message in the guestbook.

Maybe you want to leave a special message for Jamie or your own little angel. Then place your message on Jamie's personal guestbook.

I have a special page for all children who became angels. It's called "Jamie's sterrenvriendjes"
"Jamie's star friends". If you like to give your son or daughter a place amongst them please let me know.

Jamie,

Your brother Joey and Sam and Darco miss you so much.

Please wait for us at the other end of the rainbow.

If I could climb any rainbow to you Jamie, I would.

But where is the beginning of that rainbow? 

If only I knew ...